Monday, January 17, 2011

4 Days left...4 nights...4 more days of protein shakes

Is it going to be difficult? I asked my surgeon and my nutritionist when discussing the pre-operative diet I must maintain for two weeks prior to surgery.

"No," they said.  "After the first few days, it gets easier."

LIARS!  

I am 11 days in and it sucks today almost as much as it sucked on day 1.  I am dizzy half the day, my higher brain function seems to have deserted me and I would kill someone for a piece of fish and an apple.  Interestingly enough, I am not craving chocolate or cookies or any of that.  My body is telling me it needs "real" food and I can only apologize to it and lie and say it will be over soon.  It won't be.  I have 4 more days of this followed by 10 days of liquid post-op and then 10 days of mushies.  My only hope is that, post-op, I won't be so obsessed with food.  I have a feeling it won't be that easy, so we will see.

Right now this doesn't feel worth it.  But that could be because I am still so afraid the other shoe is going to drop.  I have been through pre-admission testing.  All fine.  I saw my doctor last week.  All good.  He is supposed to have everything faxed to the surgeon today.  I just called.  He still hasn't done it. 

FOR GOD'S SAKE.  Put me out of my misery.

Ah well, more later.

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